Short and sweet

Going out to my friend’s house this evening so getting this completed early, and just a short one for Juneathon Day 26.

After yesterday’s grumpy/ranting post (from which I received lots of nice supportive messages and advice – so thank you!) todays post has something happy to share with you – I managed to log back into MapMyRun!!! Yay!!! Woohoo!!!
Didn’t try until this afternoon – so no step count for today, so below I share yesterdays one with you!

Yesterday's Step Count
Yesterday’s Step Count

My exercise today:

  • The Big Shop in Morrisons – with the Blue One in the trolley along with all the shopping (heavy!)
  • 26 toe touches, 26 sit and reaches and 26 sit ups/tummy crunches – can’t believe I forgot to do these yesterday!!! Wallowing in my own world of self pity instead!!! haha!! 😛 My son joined me – which was very sweet, but he kept tooting which was rather whiffy!!! Sorry for TMI!!!
Sit up...Blue One toot...whiffy... :-D
Sit up…Blue One toot…whiffy… 😀

🙂 xxx

Feeling decidely grumpy

It’s just been a bit of pants day for Juneathon Day 25.

It all started with my dieticians appointment at St Guy’s this morning, it’s a follow up appointment as I have been on a low FODMAP (Low Fermentable Oligosaccharides, Disaccharides, Monosaccharides And Polyols) diet since February, as I suffer with ‘virus induced IBS’ (I don’t know about you, but I feel the diagnosis of IBS is a bit of a cop out and really an umbrella term for ‘we don’t know what’s really wrong with you’) and I really should now be re-introducing foods, but I have developed a bit of a phobia of eating these foods now as I don’t want to have stomach cramps and feel ill, not that the low FODMAP diet has completely eliminated my symptoms, it hasn’t! The first follow up appointment I had, turned out it could have been the chips and toast (gluten free bread) I was eating that was still giving me symptoms, as this ‘retards the starches or sugars as they have already been cooked which can makes them more difficult to digest leading to the my symptoms blah blah blah’! Basically I need to make my own chips if that’s what I want to eat! Though subsequently I feel potato doesn’t agree with me anyway – along with so many other things (though technically should be fine on a the low FODMAP diet).

This appointment, when I explained what I had been eating – it turns out it’s my bloody bowls of cornflakes I’ve been eating that are probably making me bloated and have a grumbly tum! Argh!!! If you know me well, you will know that I love my breakfast, it’s my favourite meal of the day, and I have two huge bowls of cereal in the morning (I love cereal) – none of this 30g crap – and in the book it says cornflakes were fine, what I didn’t realise was the portion size!!! It’s fine if you have half a cup – this is an exceptionally measly 15g – so my lovely dietician, bless her, as she didn’t want to tell me to stop eating something else said maybe to mix that with half a cup of rice crispies, because again these would have too much oligosaccharides if you have a larger portion! I just wanted to cry! My one flipping decent meal of the day…
I could buy the gluten free cereals – but they are about £3 for a tiddly box that probably wouldn’t last me three days! It’s just all so costly!  The Genius white sandwich loaf I buy is £3 a go – to put it perspective I can buy two loaves of normal bread for a £1 in Morrisons – it’s just ridiculous – and I appreciate higher manufacturing costs etc, but more and more people are going gluten free – so it’d be nice to see the price go down a bit, I make use of my NUS card and buy my bread in the Coop and get 10% off – yay!!!

This whole thing is making me miserable, as I don’t feel I eat enough to do my running anymore, my diet is so limited it’s embarrassing and makes going out for dinner with friends practically impossible – as things like onion and garlic are off the menu! Part of me wishes I’d never gone down this route, and had just given up dairy and gluten (wheat).  I wish there was something out there that could truly test what I was intolerant to and not just this constant guessing game, as this brings on my anxiety issues which just exacerbates my symptoms! It’s all very much a vicious circle and rather depressing!!!

Part of me wishes I could just go “Sod it” and start eating normally again – but it just doesn’t work like that, unfortunately! So now I wait for a referral to a gastroenterologist at Guy’s, I have to make an appointment with my own GP if I feel I need some mental help with regards to the phobia I have now developed with food and I can investigate the likes of Symprove and Align – probiotics that are meant to be very good but again are really expensive!!! I, again, am also apprehensive about taking them!

The only good thing was I did lots of walking – which was good for Juneathon Day 25, and I recorded my walk home from the station as a workout!

At least this sign made me smile today!
At least this sign, outside London Bridge, made me smile today!

Then this evening I went for very pleasant walk with the lovely Helen – who kindly let me bend her ear with all the above, poor girl! I was a bit ranty and I got worse as to add insult to injury I went to my MapMyWalk app to record our walk and it’s logged me out and when I have gone to log back in – it tells me it doesn’t recognise my email – I tried signing in using Facebook to no avail – so I have no photo of my step count (which I know was already over 6000 after walking up London) or my work out walk back home from the station – I’m seriously hoping it hasn’t lost my whole account history, will be emailing them presently – hence after today I think I am entitled to feel a bit grumpy!!!

Apologies for such a rambling and moany post – but just needed to get it off my chest!

Tomorrow is a new day – praying that it’s a better one!!!

Has anyone else suffered like this – do you have a happy outcome you can share with me? Or have you used Symrove/Align or the equivalent – can you share your experience with me? Has it improved your quality of life?

In other news - I used up my strawberries that were on the turn and made ice lollies for my kids!
In other news – I used up my strawberries that were on the turn and made ice lollies for my kids!

😛 xxx

It was a run!!!

So for Juneathon Day 23 this evening I went for a pleasant one mile run with Helen – but I was annoyed that I didn’t noticed until afterwards I’d entered  a Walk rather than a Run into MapMyRun!!! Argh!!! Oh well, never mind!

Grumpy face as I put walk instead of run!!! :-P
Grumpy face as I put walk instead of run!!! 😛

Prior to my run I did my 23 toe touches, 23 sit and reaches and 23 sit ups/tummy crunches (starting to really feel these in my tummy muscles now!) I also did an additional exercise which involved my kids sitting on my legs like I was a ‘throne’ and then me being an ejector seat – to much hysterical laughter! I only managed a couple of these, my feet started going numb!!! haha!!!

Step count
Step count

🙂 xxx

Minimum Requirements

Another busy day and still feeling exhausted from all the running around yesterday my Juneathon Day 21 contribution is 21 toe touches, 21 sit and reaches and 21 sit ups/tummy crunches! This was such a laugh when I started with one of each – now the laugh is on me!!! Haha!!! 😜

In other news that may amuse – my Pink One is doing very well at her gymnastics (and the teacher also said she was a nice little girl too!) – so my mum and dad treated her to a leotard and leggings and mummy and daddy got her a second leotard.

My little gymnast (and good girlie)!
My little gymnast (and good girlie)!

So today when she put one on the Blue One had to join in didn’t he!?! Haha!!! I probably shouldn’t share, poor boy, but just couldn’t resist…

Ones to have printed out for his eighteenth!!! Mwah ha ha...
Ones to have printed out for his eighteenth!!! Mwah ha ha…
My Pink One - Gymnast and the Blue One looking like a ballet dancer! Look at that face!!!
My Pink One – Gymnast and the Blue One looking like a ballet dancer! Look at that face and those socks!!!
Gymnastics poses!
Gymnastics poses!

And now back to Juneathon… My step count was pretty pants today as well! I will try and do better!

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🙂 xxx

What a difference a day makes

Today I did a lot, so this is great for Juneathon Day 16! Somewhat of an improvement from yesterday!!!

  • Walk to and from school in the morning for the Pink One
  • Two lots of laundry hung out (which did involve climbing up and down stairs!)
  • A walk to the park with the Blue One
  • Played bat and ball with the Blue One
  • Kicked a football with the Blue One
He shoots... He scores...
He shoots… He scores…
  • Stood and walked around the playground as the Blue One played
  • Walked home from the park with the Blue One
  • Walked to collect Pink One from school and home again
  • Played a bit in the garden with the kiddies
  • A short brisk walk with Helen! Then a quick jog home! Thankfully my foot seems a lot better! Yay!
A walk and a jog
A walk and a jog
  • 16 toe touches, 16 sit and reaches, 16 sit ups/tummy tucks! (Why do I always end up doing these in the evening!?!

Check out my step count for the day – and there are times when I didn’t carry my phone on me, so there were more steps!!!

Oooo, lots of steps!!!
Oooo, lots of steps!!!

I’m exhausted, my feet are sore, my legs ache and now I have to study and funnily enough all I really want to do is go to sleep – can’t imagine why!?!

🙂 xxx

Today involved a school fete

So my contribution for Juneathon Day 13 was walking around my daughter’s school fete for four hours (plus the walk there and home) – and with how tender my foot still feels this was quite a good effort I feel! Especially as my hubby, in-laws and I were being dragging around by a very excited 5 year old and 3 year old! You cannot say that this wasn’t exercise!!!

Police Officers
The strong arm of the law!
Fun, games and face painting!
Fun, games and face painting!
Pony rides!
Pony rides!

Check out the step count for today!!!

Plus there was my toes touches, sit and reaches and sit ups/tummy crunches of which there was 13 each! (Why did I think this was a good idea!?! :-P)

🙂 xxx

Then let us begin…

So it’s the first day of June and is therefore the first day of Juneathon!!!  I have decided to participate, as I enjoyed taking part in Janathon.  Didn’t know what I was going to do today, after not feeling great during my Eltham Park 5 mile run yesterday.

I then decided I would attempt a run with my two small people, my Pink One is 5 years old and my Blue One is only 3 years old.  They’ve always wanted to go for a run with mummy – so after collecting the Pink One from school, we came home and got ready to go.  I didn’t know what I would be letting myself in for, this could’ve gone hideously wrong!

They actually did very well.  I had planned a mile, which the Pink One would’ve coped with no problem, but was probably a bit optimistic for my Blue One bless him! We did short bursts of ‘running’ and the odd walk, at one point I had to carry the Blue One but couldn’t managed that for too long!

After run selfie with the small people!
After run selfie with the small people!
The time we took! Not bad with two little ones!
The time we took! Not bad with two little ones!
The route we took!
The route we took!

Don’t forget I also got up this morning and touched my toes as well – which I tweeted this morning!

All in all not a bad start to Juneathon – how long will it last!?!

Happy Juneathon everyone!

🙂 xxx

Guilty

09qXpgmommy-blog-kids-online-mom-ecards-someecards***Disclaimer – To my darling Pink One and Blue One – if you are reading this now you are older, please don’t judge mummy too harshly, remember I love you and adore you and always will, I am only human and occasionally things just get to me.  If you are ever lucky enough to have small people of your own, you may actually understand some of these points and may even appreciate mummy having written this! I only get these feeling of guilt as I care about you both so much!*** 

I am quite nervous about doing this post and wondering what people would think of me, is it too much to be sharing? But reading the fabulous blog of The Unmumsy Mum (give her blog a look – it’s brilliant!) – has given me the push and inspiration to do this because sometimes honesty, and just being truthful, is the best policy, and when it comes to being a mum (or dad) – we’re in this together!!!

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I think I spend my entire time just feeling guilty – becoming a mum seems to have amplified this feeling a hundred fold, plus I’m Catholic so I know all about feeling guilty…

Guilty when I used to work and wasn’t around for my kids.

Guilty now I’m a stay at home mum but sometimes wish I still had a job in an office with adults! Adult talk and a hot cup of tea! 

Guilty for being a shouty mummy.  Never ever thought I’d be such a shouty mummy prior to having children! This has seriously taken me by surprise!

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Guilty for reading the blogs and sites that will help you stop being a shouty mum in these easy steps (if I have learnt just one thing about having children is that nothing to do with them is ever easy!) but just being too bloody tired to be able to carry out the suggestions and still being shouty!

Guilty for screaming at my daughter when she’s only been back from a sleep over for less than two hours as she’s made her brother cry more in that time than he’s cried in the last two days she’s been away and telling her I wished she was still away! Feelings beyond guilty – I am such a horrible person! Who does that? Oh, me!!! She’s only five!!! Head in hands shame…

Guilty that sometimes I am so shouty on a particular day I actually give myself a sore throat! What must the neighbours think!?! Fortunately they’ve got kids too!!!

Guilty when I’ve been shouty and the small people come and hug me and say “mummy, I love you!” and not being very appreciative of the hug at that time as I am still feeling grumpy. I love you small people, always will – I sometimes just don’t like your behaviour and need a few moments to gather myself and calm down.

Guilty for losing it over the small stuff! Why did I start this? Can’t back down now, I am the parent and need to make my point…

Guilty for being on my iPhone instead of paying attention to my children. I can usually judge how ‘bad’ my day has been by the percentage of battery left on my phone!!! The lower the percentage the tougher the day!!!

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Guilty for not enjoying my kids ALL the time.  We’re only human and sometimes the days with a small child can feel so long and when they’re in one of ‘those’ moods, where everything you suggest isn’t good enough, it’s hard to find the joy!

Guilty for wondering at times, all be it fleetingly, when it’s been a tough day, if I should’ve become a mum which leads to more feelings of guilt as there are women out there who are desperate to be a mum and spending vast quantities of money and straining relationships to try and get this honour!

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Guilty when I spend the day wishing for the kids bedtime.

Guilty once they are in bed that I’ve been so shouty at them all day and not played with them more! They look so angelic and beautiful when they’re asleep – you do wonder how you could’ve got so angry at them!

Guilty because I think sometimes my days are way harder then my husbands day at work in an office! He gets to talk to big people (who are not necessarily better behaved than small children, but that’s not the point) and not constantly discuss why chocolate buttons do not constitute as lunch – well maybe they do, just not when you’re 3!!!.

Guilty that the minute the hubby steps through the front door I pass off the kids – possibly before he’s even got his coat off – if it’s been a ‘bad’ day! Argh – That’s it – your go!!!

Guilty for wishing my kids would shut up….please!?! You wait so long to hear them say “mummy” or “daddy” for so long and then it gets relentless…!!!

Guilty for wishing my kids would go away and leave me in peace for 5 minutes! Seriously guys I can go to the loo all by myself!!!

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Guilty because for a split second now and then, these beautiful people I love and made and will always love, I highly dislike them! Well actually it’s the behaviour I don’t like really…

Guilty for admitting I couldn’t have been a stay at home mum until one of my children was at primary school – so I only have one to deal with for the majority of the day! Would have been the same regardless of who was born first! It’s just seems so much easier dealing with one once you’ve got two!

Guilty as I sometimes act like a petulant child! No seriously I do, and it’s not something I am proud of! “It’s not fair!!!”

Guilty that I won’t let my kids mix the Play-Doh colours! Please don’t do it!!! *shudder*

Guilty because I wish my 5 year old or 3 year old would ‘just grow up’!!! What are you? A kid or something!?! Oh… Then realising, that though the days may go slowly the years are flying by and they’ll be all grown up before I know it! *sob* It can all be so confusing on the old emotions!

Guilty for allowing one bit of bad behaviour from my kids ruin what had probably been a lovely day up the that point and holding a grudge because they upset my rose tinted ideal! That’s it – you’ve ruined the day! *Grumble*

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Guilty for making a promise to my small people that I don’t keep! We ran out of time, actually out of whatever it was, or it wasn’t on the Sky+ box like I thought, or I only really promised to have a quiet life and made sure we couldn’t carry out said promise! Oh the shame!!!

Guilty for really wanting a week off from being a parent! So I’m human…

Guilty as there are times I enjoy my studying more than playing with my kids! It doesn’t answer me back…

Guilty that I sometimes find my Blue One ‘easier’ than my Pink One! (aybe because he’s the second child or because he is a boy!?! He just seems a simpler creature to deal with! He does have his moments though!)

Guilty when I hear my horrible side coming out of my daughter’s  mouth as she shouts at her brother! I cringe when I hear her and think “Oh no, that’s all me!” 😦

Guilty for constantly saying “in a minute” “wait a minute” “not just now” “give me a minute” when my kids ask for my time! They do seem to time it perfectly when I am in the middle of something like getting their lunch/dinner, making a phone call or trying to write a blog!!!

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Guilty for not being the mother I think I ‘should’ be! I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others, and what seems to be their amazingly well behaved children, and can only do my best, but I always feel I should be doing better!

Guilty when I feel super proud because my kids are ‘so bright’! A moment of feeling smug and then seriously guilty about it!

Guilty for not sitting down and doing more ‘arts and crafts’ with them – but I am just not very good at it! I am a control freak, and the mess just makes me twitchy! Plus, I just end up taking over as they’re just not doing it right… oh the shame…

Guilty for writing this and putting it ‘out there’! It’s been cathartic to write and hope will make one other mummy (or daddy) realise they are not alone!

If this just helps one other person feel better about themselves, gives you a laugh, makes you realise it’s not just you – least my guilt will have done some good!  There are many more things I feel guilty about, but think the above is enough for one post!

I love these small people dearly and wouldn’t be without them, they really are my life, my everything, but the occasional sleepover at nanny and grandad’s is very much appreciated I can tell you!!! 😀

If I mention to anyone else that my children can misbehave, it’s met with remarks of disbelief! “But they’re such an angel, I can’t imagine it!” – as long as my children are beautifully behaved for other people, The hubby and I must be doing something right… just wish I got to see more of this amazing behaviour!!! *sigh…*

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Please comment and/or share so I can alleviate some of my guilt… Please… I will even beg!!! 😜️xxx

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The end is in sight

It seems as Janathon is drawing to a close I have become a bit slack with what exercise I’m doing and today isn’t going to be any different!!! I’ve been on a couple of walks most at a relatively slow pace as I was walking with the Blue One – but there was one brisk one whilst pushing a pushchair with the Blue One in it!

Janathon Day 29

I am hoping to go for a run with Deputy Helen tomorrow, but I have a sore throat and feel generally achy, but hoping this will improve after a good nights sleep!

Goodnight all!!!

😊xxx

A sense of Déjà Vu

My main exercise today…wait for it…it’ll really surprise you…honestly it will…was 30 minutes doing Wii Fit Plus – shocked aren’t you? I can tell!!!

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As a mum of two young children you’d think I would be used to repeating myself! Haha!!!

Additionally I did play a game with the kids, whereby they’d sit on my lap and I’d drop them through my legs – which I can assure you is weight lifting!!! They found it hysterical with cries of “Do it again mummy” – to the point I had to tell them no more or I really would drop them!

Finally I have had the parental fun of my five year old finding any excuse to come downstairs and not go to sleep – numerous times going back up and down the stairs – which I am sure counts as at least 10 minutes of exercise!!!

😊xxx