The Musings and Mutterings of a Marvellously Mad Mummy!
I'm a wife and a mum of two young children (6 year old daughter and 4 year old son), who took up running in February 2014!
I started this blog to share my running journey and experiences, which I will, but I also think it will be a platform to share the various musings of my mind!
I have been diagnosed with a General Anxiety Disorder and currently I am having CBT sessions to address some of these anxieties/worries - so feel that this blog may help me when my mind goes into overdrive when I think too much and worry too much!
I hope some of the things I write about will help others and realise it's not just you!
Thank you for visiting my blog!
Enjoy!!! :-) xxx
As the saying goes “Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be Kind. Always”
I am a face of anxiety.
But you can’t necessarily tell who is battling their inner demons because they conceal it all behind a smiley face, a bouncy bubbly personality, lots of what seems like boundless self-confidence or possibly they keep it all behind closed doors, keeping themselves to themselves, however they deal with it, they are still battling and doing their very best…
Before I go further into the interesting insights they were able to share with myself and the lovely Charlotte and Amy, as some of the top Women In Sport – I’d just like to let you know how this how amazing campaign has affected me in such a positive way, not just getting to meet new inspiring people and take part in fun activities but also mentally.
***This is not a sponsored post – though I was appreciative of coming home with my own hockey stick, ball, shin pads and bag which was lovely and unexpected. All opinions are my own***
So on Tuesday 7th, November England Hockey announced that Vitality UK is to be their official Wellness Partner, and I was extremely lucky to be part of the launch event along with the lovely Lucy and terrific Tess, which took place at the Lee Valley Hockey and Tennis Centre in the Queen Elizabeth Olympic Park!
I had never played hockey or even held a proper hockey stick until this event, as my secondary school was a lacrosse school, so this was exciting and terrifying in equal measure.
Not only were we getting to learn some hockey skills, they were being taught to us by members of the Women and Men’s England Hockey teams – so not much pressure there then! Lol! But it was just amazing and so much fun, and I was just so relieved that I did manage to hit the ball. We got to meet Laura Unsworth, Giselle Ansley, Sarah Haycroft, Phil Roper, Adam Dixon and Henry Weir.
It was such a pleasure to meet them all and learn some of the basic skills, even though my challenge for #WomenInSport campaign is going to be football, it was a brilliant opportunity to experience another team sport and to see what else is out there, even though it was something I had never done before. Read More »
It won’t stop, it’s absolutely relentless, I try everything in my power to make it halt, but it’s perpetually overwhelming – what is this terrifying thing I talk about? It’s my own mind and my own thoughts…
The only two things you have control of (supposedly);
– Your own thoughts
– Your own actions
But when it comes to anxiety, there is absolutely no controlling those thoughts, they are a neverending tidal wave – they knock you down, and you try to get up, but then another wave comes and knocks you off your feet again and they come again and again and again, ceaseless wave after wave, until you have no strength to get back up and they wash over you, suffocating you, all-encompassing, sapping you of energy and emotion, defeating you.
‘This is not a ‘pity me’ post – or me asking you to say you like me – this is me just sharing how my brain works – hope this makes sense!’
I touched on this a while back on an Instagram post – but that was more about accepting myself physically, this blog post is covering my issues with accepting or liking/loving myself mentally.
You’ll find the original Instagram post HERE – did try and embed it, but the video wouldn’t show!
I know it does seem strange to say this, considering how much of myself I put out there on Social Media, but I do find it really hard to like myself, let alone love myself. I don’t know if this is part of my anxiety disorder or whether it’s just a particularly annoying character flaw – which in turn makes me think “Well if I can’t like myself, how can I expect anyone else too?” I even question the poor Hubby now and then, “Do I annoy you?“, “Do you really love me?” I mean a lot of the time I irritate myself! Read More »
I was very lucky two weeks ago to go to Champneys Spa in Tring, courtesy of Champneys and Vitality – and it came at just the right time, the Saturday after I completed my Level 3 Personal Training course!
Now the reason for this wonderful treat is actually because I’m very excitingly going to be working with Vitality on their #WomenInSport Campaign, and it was at this event I got to meet some of the other lovely female bloggers who are also getting involved! I met Georgina, Terri, Sophie, Katrina, Laura and Charlotte – the other ladies taking part who couldn’t be there on the day are Lucy and Tess – please check out all their journeys too!
Don’t you just love the word community? It feels all inclusive, doesn’t it?
A group of people living in the same place or having a particular characteristic in common.
– Oxford English Dictionary
In this instance, it’s a group of people having a particular characteristic in common – which is a love for being physically active and sharing it with others, even if occasionally we might embarrass ourselves doing it (ok, that might just be me) and that’s the ethos and plan of Decathlon (to share physical activity with others, not embarrass ourselves – that’s purely a personal choice, or can’t be helped in my case).
I’m not medically trained and cannot give you medical advice – do not diagnose yourself with things you read on the internet, but I think it’s worth being aware of the following. If you are experiencing anything I’ve described in this post please go and see your GP.
We’ve all hit the metaphorical wall now and then when working out. Sometimes we can push on through, other times we need a day or two of recovery and then we’re back firing on all cylinders.
But have you found yourself hitting the wall time and time again, coming down with cold after cold for months on end and just generally feeling blurgh!?Read More »
This did start as an Instagram comment, but I realised it was a bit epic, and I feel it’s an important message, so thought why not get it out there as a blog post, as I’ve not written one for a while!
Recently, I’ve been feeling amongst the whole fitness and health universe there’s a lot of ‘if you don’t do it our way‘ you’re doing it wrong or ‘if you don’t do it like this‘ then you’re wrong – instead of congratulating and encouraging those who wish to change their lifestyle to a healthier more active one and sharing that there ISN’T just ONE specific way to do it!
That it will take time and your best bet is to do things gradually. You’ll be more likely to maintain the healthier lifestyle and you’re less likely to fall off the wagon if your changes are manageable. For instance, when I started to change how I was eating I didn’t try and change everything at once, I initially started with breakfast and slowly incorporated making my other meals healthier over a period of time.
I thought it would be good to share with you a little bit about as to why I am Braving the Shave…
Last year my close friend was dying and did die of cancer, our close family friend is also currently battling cancer, a family member is battling cancer again, numerous family members have battled cancer, we’ve lost people to cancer and every single day more people are diagnosed with this horrendous disease – IT’S JUST SHIT – it does not discriminate and there but for the grace of God go I, this has affected me a lot and I got into my head I wanted to use this anxiety productively and try and raise some money for charity.